Everytime I want to get something or have my eye on getting something, it sells out before I get a chance to get it lol. That’s just my luck I suppose. But a Baby the Stars Shine Bright jsk that I have been coveting for the last month, that will also FIT me, sold out through reservation. GAHHH!!!

Here is the said jsk (BTSSB Friend Usa-kyuma sophie jsk):

I didn’t see it for reservation so it must have sold out rather quickly upon news of its release. *sigh* such sadness. It really is my dream dress. There was a similar jsk with the same print for reservation, but I prefer this one’s chest design, plus it would fit my flat A-cup frame lol. Most of its other colors sold out too:

With the exception of the blue… I usually love blue, and while I do like this one, I don’t desire it as much as I did in yellow. I wouldn’t have minded pink or white either. The bonnet is still up for reservation, which I wonder if I should at LEAST reserve the bonnet… but shipping from Japan… DX I may ask the San Francisco store if they will carry it, but from what I recall from the egl community on livejournal they mention that they get very little info on stock information. *sigh* And since these were for reserve anyway, I doubt they’d re-release them for the American market. Sad cat is sad.

And now I ponder whether or not to reserve the bonnet in the same print.. and wish and hope and pray I see the jsk for auction or something… even though the price of it will probably skyrocket *knock on wood.* So many expenses… not to mention needing to find another apartment to save my sanity from my neighbors who BLAST their annoying repetitive music from 8AM to 12AM. God I hate them.

I think I would sell my organs to get her…. err, both of them lol.

80cm dolls. About the size and proportions of a small child. And for some reason, even though I vowed to myself not to ever have children, and I have no desires (as of right now) to ever have children, I want these girls. They are PHENOMENAL.

Amidst being completely tired out from an awesome Saturday, driving for about 5 hours on Sunday, and then going right back to work after that, I haven’t been able to post how InnoSera went! Well, “IT WAS FUN!!!” just about sums it up lol. For those of you who don’t know, InnoSera is a first time convention revolving around Lolita fashion and Asian ball-jointed dolls. There were special guests like Elfdoll, Dollheart, and Baby the Stars Shine Bright!

We started out kind of late (the bf and I), as I wanted to go earlier but we both had little sleep the night before. We missed the tea party ticket handouts, but ah life moves on. We went to the check out the Baby the Stars Shine Bright store and the Dollheart/Elfdoll rooms.

I bought a pair of BTSSB socks and stationary from the BTSSB store. I really wanted to buy more, especially the blue and black bunny bear bag they had, but decided to get more things with my money than just one dress or bag… I just really wanted quantity more than quality this time around lol.

REAAAAAALLY wanted this guy (Elfdoll Vampire Red) but also did not have enough money to get him, despite the great discount they were having on him.

I know that sculpt is a Volks girl, but the more I see her the more I realize I want that particular sculpt!!! XD She was probably one of the most popular photogenic dolls that day.

The SEA OF DOLLY SHOES. Dollheart makes such great quality stuff!!! I wish they made their shoes/boots in human size lol. They did announce they were making some of their most popular doll clothing into human size however:

They asked us to take far away/blurry shots as to not give away the details of the dress (though many people broke that rule and I’m SURE you can find better closeups and better photos than mine now) So it’s more a teaser than anything.

We decided to kill time waiting for the Baby the Stars Shine Bright fashion show to start, and took some photos. Here is the bf posing with Robin:

The pose was his idea, by the way. Why can’t I think of creative things to do???

So we did one with me and Robin too:

Darn petticoat.

Decked out in Atelier Boz Isn’t he stunning?

Yeah I know. I still don’t know how to smile Darn wobbly/funky knees. I really like this coord though <3

Still killing time before the show. You know he wanted to show off that Vivienne Westwood ring lol. Which reminds me, I forgot to wear mine!!! T.T

We were one of the first few people to get into the room I met with Nikki and sat next to her for the whole show. I wish I got a picture of her outfit!!! She has one of my dream jsk’s lol. She looked absolutely gorgeous, she should have been in the fashion show too <3

Here the guy introduces designer Kumiko Uehara of Baby the Stars Shine Bright. “Can I steal you???” I thought as she spoke lol. Her whole look is amazing.

And because there are just way too many photos… I’ll just link to each gallery:

You can follow each respective page on the left links

The finale with the models posing with designer Kumiko Uehara:

I was very envious of the girls who got to be chosen, but in the end I knew I’m too short and unproportional to be a model anyway. One day I would dream to be like Uehara-san <3

One of my favorite outfits was surprisingly the kodona outfit <3 If I decide completely to get out of lolita fashion, I would probably flock to boy style instead XD

Now my biggest question about these outfits are that normally all these clothes are huge on me when I buy from BTSSB. I know a few of these girls (the models I mean) who have very similar measurements to my own, who wore these outfits without a problem. I know that they probably had to pin some hems back and such, but I really wonder exactly where they had to pin and stuff (just so I could do it for myself, lol). Nikki told me that they wore like, 3 pairs of bloomers and petticoats O.o

I wanted to go on Sunday but some family related things popped up and I ended up driving from Seattle to Chehalis, and then eventually back from Chehalis to Seattle in the same day. I hate driving. And speaking of which we are doing that today too. Poo.

I had fallen in love with the Elfdoll tinies (as stated several posts down), and I saw Elfdoll Olivia for sale in the Elfdoll/Dollheart room. Sunday morning when I realized I would miss out on such a deal, I gave money to the bf and asked him to go get her for me since I wouldn't be able to go. When I got home in the evening, there she was in our living room <3

Kowaii~~!!! Please don’t stare at me like that… so many people today…
(lol she was like this at the con before the bf brought her home. Poor thing XD)

This is what her whole set came with:

Quite a steal!!! They had this whole basket fullset on sale for about $220 with tax. She normally costs around $260, not including the extra wig, stand, some of the clothing, and one of the pairs of feet. She’s obviously the older version with strung feet and not the new magnetic feet like I had hoped. And I was going to wait and get Elfdoll Sylf, but I wanted Olivia eventually so I might as well get her new… I’ve had her for a week and I still haven’t thought of a name…

How’s Nami? That was the first name I thought of when I had my Elfdoll Soah arrive… but I decided to name her Robin instead. I gotta think on it some more…

This is probably the most picture heavy post I’ve ever made!!!

Now to go to the grocery store. I have a strange urge to eat spaghetti-O’s…. I must be the only 20-something year old who eats them.

I sold Robin’s Angel of Dream body and bought her a Volks Pureskin sd10 body. Though you can see the seam lines and whatnot, and it’s kind of older so there are some marks here and there, overall I am happy because it was the ideal body style for her! I love the petiteness of the body. Definitely looks better in lolita clothing XD Since her legs aren’t 8-feet-tall-model-length anymore. I like her thicker, shorter legs lol. The only thing I don’t like are her hands. They are a bit chubby and childlike. So I will eventually buy her a pair of H-02 hands to bring out the more adult side in her (I know, cliché, since the SD10 body is meant to be childlike. But it was my ideal body for a petite adult girl XD)

The resin match is a lot better than the NS-Y AOD Body I had previously. I think the Volks body is slightly darker with a more white tone, while the Elfdoll is a bit lighter with a more peachy tone. After InnoSera I will probably buy some tools (if I have any money left over lol), mainly sandpaper, to get rid of those seamlines. I might give her a nice rubbing alchohol + melanine sponge bath, as I’ve heard this can lighten the resin. I’ve gotta buy some MSC and chalk pastels though, so I can give Robin’s reminesce head a faceup and her body a good blushing.

I can’t wait till InnoSera!!! 3 more days until a weekend filled with lolita fashion and ball-jointed dolls XD My wallet is so dead lol. I hope I have any money left to spend between Dollheart and Baby the Stars Shine Bright!!! XD I REALLY want to buy an Elfdoll tiny too…

I can think of so many negative things I want to say and complain about it, but nobody cares to hear about that sort of thing. I can’t help but feel like I have nobody to confide in anymore. Or rather, even if I do, I get shot down anyway. Maybe the saying is true, that you can only rely on yourself.

I’ve been considering every now and then if I should get out of lolita fashion… the major thing is I just don’t look as good in it like the models do, or even girls who are 5′4” and have long shapely legs. It’s not that I don’t have confidence in myself… it’s just life. It’s expensive, most of the everything is too big/long for me anyway, and I’ve been developing new hobbies and interests that also require a lot of money.

I’ve been wondering if I should give up on the large ball-jointed dolls too. I haven’t really bonded with my girl very much, but it’s also because I haven’t really bought anything for her. I should have listened to the advice of doll enthusiasts who told me to start out with a small doll first. I really like Elfdoll Sylf and have already found a ton of slightly more affordable wigs and clothes that I’d like to buy. Well, the clothes I can make myself, since they are so small. My Robin is another story. I don’t have patience to make clothes for myself (I’ve only successfully made ONE lolita blouse and skirt, and ONE successfully completed cosplay), and even though Robin is considerably smaller I still have no patience to sew for her size either. It may be because of being burnt out on my full time job… on my days off I don’t feel like doing very much (save for reading manga or playing video games. Speaking of which I read all of Card Captor Sakura!!! It was so sweet XD now I remember how much I loved CLAMP’s stuff).

Speaking of which I am re-reading Alice 19 from the beginning, though I’ve read it halfway through before. Just in case I missed something. I get my 7 minutes of joy when One Piece and Naruto are released every week too… they need to make those issues longer!!! And Berserk just doesn’t come out fast enough… is Miura-san done with Idol Master yet??? Or is he doing the teaching thing? I’d love to learn art from him XD

I feel kind of down. I’m easily discouraged. That and I’m just confused and don’t know where to start. I want to work creatively… I hate working in a bank. I hate people in general, especially crabby rich folk who think the whole world has to cater to them. Well, some of the poor folk are pretty awful too. But let’s not get into that anymore.

I sent my demo to Fluxus so here’s to hoping I make it… I sang “Blue923″ by Loveholic. And “Lonely in Gorgeous” by Tommyfebruary6 (they specified a ballad and a dance song, and since I’m not very pop/dance friendly it was the one song my sister mentioned that i liked XD) I think I will start working on another demo to send to Sony Japan too. Maybe sans lolita, since they already have Nana Kitade and Kanon Wakeshima under their label…

I wish I could magically find bandmates. You know most people want to be like Nana.. she’s sexy and cool and just totally awesome… but when I think of myself I think as a vocalist I’m more the Reira type (and personality-wise I’m a mixture of Komatsu Nana and Misato the lolita/Vivienne Westwood fangril lol). I wish I had a Naoki, Ren, and Takumi to lean on though… I guess I need to socialize more… try to find bandmates. Inspiring people who can write music together with me… perform with me… even that seems like a dream. But everytime I think of bandmates, I think of an all female band, or a band with me being the only girl. Not an even mix O.o I wonder why that is? Too much Nana I guess.

InnoSera is this weekend! I’m excited and somehow a little down. Well one thing I have no money to spend (T.T) and I know I’m going to be making grabby hands at all the Baby the Stars Shine Bright, Elfdoll, and Dollheart stuff. I’m going to be jealous of how pretty the models will be at the BTSSB fashion show… they are bringing their own hair and makeup artists, so undoubtedly all the girls will look beautiful… *sigh* I wish I could feel the power of Japanese makeup artists XD

I have my outfits picked out though! I just hope my blouse comes in time… and I hope my girl’s new body gets here in time so I can take her too!!! I’m worried about picking up my registration on Friday, since they stop at 6:00PM and I get off of work at 5:30-ish… and they are in Bellevue and work is in Seattle… *sigh* I wonder if I should change clothes for registration day? I’d feel like crap if people are already dressed in their cutest lolita and aristocrat while I’m stuck in granny bank clothes. Maybe I’ll change in the car….

I have a to do list to accomplish by the end of the month… one of the things on my list is to get my passport! My first passport. Wow. I’ve gotta take some good photos at home since I usually like my own photo taking more than others taking pics of me. I know which angles I like more XD Hopefully I will have some money to do it ^^;; I think it costs like $100 for a first time passport… did you know in Korea they are allowed to photoshop your passport photo to make it all pretty? I’m a bit peeved because in the U.S. you are not by any means allowed to photoshop and enhance your face in any way >.<

*sigh* and I still have my Oklahoma license… it expires next year so I figured I would procrastinate. I don’t drive anymore so I don’t need to worry about being pulled over and having the wrong address on file. Brent has his new spiffy WA license. He doesn’t like his photo XD But they had to retake it like 4 times because he kept smiling goofily.

I have to try and stay positive, but I’m just not a positive person lol. When I go to work and they spout all this “Let’s go team!” bullcrap I really get sick to my stomach. I’m serious, my stomach literally does flips. Then again I was the student in highschool who skipped pep rallies and crap and go hide out in the art room and borrow all their art supplies lol. Man I miss those days.

My art needs more love. I will probably post my paper doll entry for InnoSera on deviantART (and I didn’t win, by the way XD it’s expected though, everyone favors clean vector drawings over hand done stuff… I’m a little old and outdated I suppose. But I’m curious to see who won, I bet it’s really cute).

I should probably sleep. Hell awaits me in the morning (work).

I can’t wait till InnoSera… hopefully I will get a lot of good shots!

Saturday night I went to watch the Seattle Symphony play Final Fantasy: Distant Worlds. Nobuo Uematsu was there in the flesh!!! He was dressed in… grey and white shrine gear??? Lol and he had long hair and wore a blue and white bandana XD He is full of awesome. Looks like he may have gone to Pike Place Market too, because he wielded none other than…. a fish…. A rubber fish, but a fish nonetheless. In a concert hall XD Anyway the symphony was amazing. I forgot what song they opened with, but everytime they played a song from FF8 or 7 I teared up XD And they played the game sequences on the big screen, so watching 8’s ending CG’s with Laguna and Raine made me bawl XD It was a really amazing concert. And I’m sure the orchestra never had such a geeky, rambunctious crowd; we must have given them applause after EVERY song. And two standing ovations XD Near the end, Uematsu-san and Mr. Arnie Roth (the conductor) threw the fishes into the crowd XD Well, rather Uematsu-san threw one into the crowd, and Mr. Roth threw it behind him at one of the violinists LOLOLOL

I want to go again!!! I want to hear the music again. Grand band version of the chocobo theme XD Epic “Man with the Machine Gun” (I loved how they played his limit break sequence!!! And the Dollet battles for the battle theme!!!) and the Final Fantasy 1, 2, and 3 medley. I never played 6, 11, or 12, but now I want to. I just wish I had the time to play looooong RPG’s again. I’m sure I can fit it into my life somehow though XD And Uematsu is returning for FF14!!! The games just aren’t the same without his music!

And today we had the epic swap meet!!! I got a few awesome trades out of it too. And after seeing the Meta candy house skirt in person, I am KEEPING it. The elastic on the waist is AMAZING. Not like Baby’s TIGHT TIGHT waistbands (who REALLY has a 24 inch waist anyway???). Which gave me this great idea for my pettis. I’m going to take out all the elastic and replace them with ribbon, so I can just tie it onto my waist. And not die from lack of hair XD And loosen the ribbon when I eat a lot O.o

So now I gotta pre-register for InnoSera, pay my cell phone bill and my camera bill, and I’m done with payments owed for the month. Hurrah! XD

I was really shocked to hear that Michael Jackson died today. I grew up listening to his music, so it’s kinda painful to realize someone with the greatest voice, moves, and charisma is gone. I’ll never get to see him perform live or anything.

RIP Michael; you will be missed.

I just read on the Innocente Seraphim website that Ms. Cholong of Elfdoll and PasuLau of Doll Heart will be attending!! I’m so excited XD Now I just have to pre-register…

It’s bad for my wallet because I love Elfdoll (that’s why my first doll choice was Soah!) AND Dollheart has some of the most amazing clothes for dollies!!! I probably won’t be able to buy anything (I don’t even have room on my puny little credit card, huhuhu T.T) but at least I have a nice enough camera to take some awesome shots XD Now I need to make my purses into a DSLR camera suitable carrying case! Now how can I go about doing that with Josephine… (that’s the name of my bunny bear bag, ahahaha)

So I’m subscribed to Baby the Stars Shine Bright’s blog on LJ, and noticed lately they come out with some great casual lolita ensembles, as well as just normal cute coordinates in general. I’ve been getting great coordinating ideas (because I suck at coordinating… I ALWAYS use pictures to help me coordinate!), and based on this image:

I’ve come up with a similar combination that I would like to wear in the future (when I have the $$ to buy new clothes T.T) So here’s what I’ve come up with:

Gotta love the “seacret” cake factory jsk. I love Asian people and their odd mis-spellings (haha I’m Asian too, so I can poke fun at it ) It’s one of the few jsk’s that would fit miss brick wall boobies, such as myself. I think the length is a little shorter than most of their jsk’s as well! So bonus for me (I’ve been eyeing it on this secondhand shop, but I’m not telling you which because I want it for myself! I know, I’m evil.)

I already own the Ribbon heart purse in black, so I can’t justify having another one in red (or can I?). So I picked the next cutest on my wishlist XD The socks aren’t as cute as their coordinate image one, but it will do! I need to build up my sock wardrobe, I noticed I don’t have very many And I’d love to own those shoes someday. I do have a pair of red shoes from Baby, but they are too big on me (because I have ridiculously small feet. Because I am ridiculously short and small. And therefore it’s hard to find anything in my size.)

These are the shoes I have, I think they are a bit too dark for my coordinate though:

Proof of ownership:

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2467/3838040217_002f819fa2.jpg

These are the 1st versions with the rose corsage, real leather, real wood. And they certainly cost a lot more than their new enamel versions with bows instead of roses.

They are about a U.S. size 6 (the old size S, which is the new size M). My best friend tried them on and she wears about a 6 or 6.5, and they fit her pretty well. I would actually like to sell them so I can get a pair of shoes that would fit me better (my maximum size I can withstand is a size 5.5). So I’m hoping for around $260 (and yes ladies, that includes shipping to everywhere, even worldwide), because that’s how much I paid for them. Still pretty and new, no noticeable wear and tear. (See my about me page regarding feedback!) I’m also open to offers, and trades as well! We just have to make sure whatever is offered fits though.

So I hope to come up with some more coordinates soon! I know that I’ve been eyeing a few Putumayo punk lolita coordinates too, ahhhh summer how I hate you! I have absolutely zero to wear in the summer… I only have fall and winter stuff. And maybe one spring dress…

I hope this gives others good ideas for coordinating too, and I’m hoping you will share with me!

Isn’t she gorgeous? I don’t know if her name will be permanent (I rather like her creator’s name for her, SOAH). If you are interested, I have pictures of when I first got her on Den of Angels.

I need to give more love to my doll XD I’m already making grabby hands at other dolls! When I first got into this hobby I thought I only wanted two at most. Now I’m thinking about at least 5 different dolls!!! Sheesh… Everything I like happens to be expensive O.o Lolita fashion, ball-jointed dolls…

Let’s see.. on my current wishlist I want a D.O.D. Dream of Idol Kalix, Luke (version 1), Elfdoll Twiggy Yumi (she’s so cute!!! XD), Elfdoll Sylf, D.O.T. Delphine, etc. etc…

Must keep reminding myself to give Robin more love. And clothes. Too bad work cut hours and I’m stuck paying apt rent and have no money left over at the end of the month. Aw crud.

Oh, if you haven’t noticed, I get to keep Kiwidoll open!!! Yay!!! Though no one comes to read. Well that will all be changed soon enough!!! Mwahahahahhaa XD